Inconclusive...

I have come to one of many realisations... Though I have found intense happiness as apposed to my original content feeling... I have found myself still revisiting a certain idea I once had... Or I suppose may still have... This idea is irrational simply because I have been told more than once it will likely... NEVER... happen... and while I don't much care because I am certainly enjoying my current situation... There is a small part of me inside that still holds on.

But I think this is ok. My heart goes out to you simply because I care. I like to help people and for that I am not ashamed. Just know that it was not simply because I wanted to FIX you that I care for you... Rather that I want to help because I care. I begin to care for thing long before I realise just how broken they are. While you are mending on your own I feel that I can somewhat relate on the level of pain and frustration and the fight between anger and helplessness... So many aspects I can understand... Never to feel the same way, but I can relate...

I am unsure if this is good enough... Knowing you don't want my help... Knowing I've been shut out... Perhaps temporary... Perhaps more permanently... Perhaps I care too much... But I will continue and I will always be near by...