Just My Thoughts

When I stopped believing in you it was because you showed me how fake you really are. When people look up to you it hits them hard when you let them down. Only you would say it's their fault for losing faith, and giving up hope.

Just My Thoughts

You were just a constituent. Never a Confidant. Though, I've made a few Comrades in the rally against you. So in the end I am finally free to find my true Confidant. These days life keeps getting better.

Just My Thoughts

You earn trust. You gain respect. If you have given no reason to be trusted you will not be. If you do not behave in a respectable manner you cannot gain respect. As well you cannot get respect if you do not give it. Any man who expects to inherit these things is a fool as is any man who gives these things too freely. The batter does not get more than 3 strikes.

Random Rant on Disney's "Black Princess"

The Princess and the Frog... I'm pissed about that movie.

I am under the impression that Walt Disney was supposedly a racist, and I can honestly understand if he were simply because of the time he grew up in.

Being that he's dead and Obama got elected Disney came out with it's "First Black Princess", but apparently all the GOOD stories got taken? So why is it the black chick has to kiss the nasty ass frog? And the voodoo? Are you kidding me?

It's like disney had a meeting... "What can we do to make this movie as black as possible?"

Voodoo... Really. As far as that goes from what I understand voodoo only works if you believe it does (supposedly) and it originated in Africa, so presumably black people would have a connection here.

If I remember correctly voodoo didn't turn that prince into a frog in the original story. I just think they could have come up with a new and exciting story in honor of this "Change" instead of this CRAP.

More Tyra? Shocking

So since I did watch the show today while in the hospital I saw that the next show is going to be about fat or "overweight" teens and how they are desperate for love because they get made fun of, or have low self esteem, or just don't get hit on, or asked on dates because they're fat.

I wonder how many of these girls hurt other people because they're hurting inside...

Cause I know someone who would totally go on that show.

One thing I can say. I don't care what your problem is. It's not an excuse for hurting people. It's one thing when it's so subconscious that you don't even notice what you're doing to people, but it's another thing when you use it to explain away or excuse your poor behavior. If you know you're doing it then stop doing it. After a while the excuse gets old because you're not even trying to be better.

You never really tried to be a better person. You were too busy trying to look better than everyone else.

Haters "HateHer"

I don't really like watching the Tyra Banks show, but it was on today while I was in the hospital. I did find this one interestingt though because it was brought on by a book written by a few women who are all friends with eachother. It's about girls "hating" on other girls. Hence the name.

You could say I'm a "HateHer" because I talk about all of this crap with my ex friend, but since Tyra asked a few girls WHY they "hate" I feel I have the right to explain. Besides it is MY blog after all.

You see I hate PEOPLE who do things to hurt people and don't care about it. I also hat when those people get away with it, or even worse get rewarded afterwards. It encourages shitty behavior. I do not believe that cheating, lying, and manipulating people should lead to you still getting what you want. This happens regularly through out my life though this is the worst case and there has been nothing quite like it before. I have been in many situations where people screw other people over and get away with it. I think it is very unjust. I try hard to be good and fair. I'm not perfect but I've never screwed someone over like that before. It's just not right.

I can also say that she would definitely be a "HateHer" because she always bitches "You look better than me, I was mad because you looked good in your new bathing suit, All the guys like you better, I'd rather be skinny like you and sick as a leper than my size and healthy as a horse, You always take all the guys, You always get everything, blah blah blah" When NONE of that is true. The guys who like me and don't like her simply don't like her because either she's too quiet and stand offish, she appears unfriendly, or they think she's a bitch, and she is usually all of those things. I shouldn't have to spend all my time trying to make her feel better about herself. Especially when she calls me a selfish slut and throws out any and every cutting insult she can think of to me when she's not getting her way and she thinks it's my fault. I don't do that to her. Ever. She also supposedly tells other people that I do, and that I tell her she's fat and ugly and all this other shit. I never even told her how much of a bitch I think she is. I honestly just pretend it's not happening. She pretends that she is the only one who has feelings. Her feelings matter the most, and honestly no one else's feelings really matter at all. Why else do you think she's cheated on, lied to, and hurt all the people she claims to love the most? I used to try to build her up, and while I did that she was basically trying to tear me down. She blames other people for everything, and she never takes the blame for what is her fault. She cussed me out because "You never say sorry when we argue you hurt my feelings and you only care about your feelings and I say sorry to you." She doesn't say sorry to anyone even a quarter of the time. I'm not sorry. I'm done apologizing for your bullshit and acting like I'm the one to blame. Get over yourself. If your self esteem is so low then why do you think that you're more important than everyone else? Why do you act that way, and pretend that everyone else is being selfish and conceited? "I just want to be special" Is that why you're such a bitch to everyone? You can't demand to be special, step on people to get to the top, and then cry when people don't move out of your way and let you do whatever you want. I no longer feel bad for you. You're pathetic. Call me a Hater if you want, but I call it like I see it. I will hate on people who use manipulation and mind games to back stab and hurt people, just so that they themselves can be on top and "feel special". I'm keeping it real, and I will continue to Hate Her.

Still Alone

I met a guy in school whose comics are amazing. He's sweet and funny, open and kind... Just a really cool guy. He was single and such and I don't think he was interested in anyone when I met him, but since the summer started I haven't seen him....

My friend helped us find each other on Facebook, and by then he definitely had an interest in someone else. This didn't work out I guess, but I did wish him luck. I also tried to schedule a time for us to hangout, but... he said to wait until school starts again... because he's busy and he lives about a half an hour away from me. Maybe even 45 minutes. The thing is that he was driving out here to hangout with the other girl... but I guess I could understand since he likes her...

Like I said it didn't work out I guess, but he found a new interest rather quickly. It was surprising for both of us.... and it's not me. He went to a party and I guess they played Wii Strip? Who the FUCK strips when they lose in a video game?! Maybe in a more private setting... but it appeared to me that they didn't know each other that well before this. So why are you stripping at a big party and then sitting on this guys lap and... just.... I dunno they hit it off I guess. But I never even had a chance.... I guess I should just accept that it's not gonna happen.

A Lesson on Owning Up

It's funny how some people are.

Ever notice when people say that they're not laughing...

I find it interesting, but not at all laughable that people (including myself at times I'm sure) have a tendency to put the blame of all the problems upon others. Pointing the finger at anyone, anything, everyone, and everything... Except for themselves.

It happens to the best of us, but while there are certain situations that can be considered to have a small chance that there may be other outside factors "against" you... There are some set in stone conditions in which your actions have lead you to this predicament and it is entirely your own fault.

When you lie to someone close to you repeatedly, and you are upset that they don't trust you anymore.... You have only yourself to blame for lying.

If they end your friendship it is not because "They are horrible friends who have abandoned you" It is because you have lied, and they have chosen not to accept your friendship any longer because you have violated the terms.

When you cheat on your SO and they don't forgive you... You have only yourself to blame for cheating.

It is not that they're just being insensitive and "don't understand why you did it" You may have a reason for why you've done it. "I wanted to find someone else, we weren't getting along as well anymore, I met someone new." That does not make it excusable. One should not be surprised if their SO leaves them because of that. Perhaps you could have done the honest and honorable thing and not cheat, as well as telling them how you feel and if things don't get mended, then break it off legitimately.

We all make choices in our lives, and those choices have consequences.

When you decide to cheat on your SO you've decided that your happiness matters more to you than theirs (in which why would you eve keep them around?), and when you decided to lie to someone usually it is not at all because you don't want to "hurt them with the truth", but that you want to get away with it. There is no "I lied to you because I didn't want to hurt you." It's actually an "I lied because I knew if you found out things wouldn't go perfectly my way, and I thought it best to keep you in the dark in order to make things work out for me at your expense."

People don't like to admit that. I think it's time to own up.

A Letter

Oh pot, you are just as black as me.

- sincerely Kettle

KARMA BITCH (I hope it catches up QUICK)

Life. Life. Life is lovely.

Fuck with me I'll beat you ugly.

Hoes. Hoes. Yall don't know me.

I'm a smart one. Listen closely.

Karm. Karma. Gotcho numba.

Dail it up. You tryina ditch.

Run. Run. Hide yo shit.

But catchin' up Karma's a bitch.

© 2010

I'm not tryina talk about specifics anymore, but in general... If I have ever told you that "I hope you fucking die in a fire." I hope you know I meant it.

My own little FML

My EX Best Friend is a cheating whore. She fucked 7 guys behind her fiancées back. She lied to one of the guys about the rest of the guys on the side. She got caught cheating so her fiancée left her. All the other guys on the side (excluding the one she lied to) don't really want her. The guy she lied to is a guy I've been in love with for years. She knew. They're dating now. I told them they can fuck off. I got a job interview. At the place he works at... FML

Continued

You don't make any FUCKNG sense! I'm tired of people not fucking making sense. You all must be idiots! Are there any people out there who have any sort of logic left in their fucked up little minds?! Please, if you're out there fucking find me because RIGHT NOW I'm fucking surrounded by IDIOTS! God fucking damnit!

Venting Quickly

FUCK!!!!!!

Just. Fuck people. Seriously, fuck you all. Fuck fuck fuck fucking FUCK!