Subject: War and Peace

Current mood: blah
Category: Writing and Poetry


My mind is a battle ground of thoughts that never end.
Everytime I make excuses it's just my way to defend
myself from everything that goes on in this cold, ignorant world.
Corruption of a country can't control this little girl
as the bombs fly over baghdad. Listen. Screams from long lost souls.
Can we ever stop the maddness? How much hate can one heart hold?
Just how many bodies do you think will fit into one grave?
Terrorism. Bush decision. We can't find Osama's cave.
"Send more troops in!" We're not winning. "This'll help!" I'm sure it will.
So we're sitting on our asses while our soldiers all stand still.
Who elected such intelligence to run our lovely country.
"Yeah I got a great idea. Let's send them on a killing spree,
but what we'll never tell them is that they're the ones to die."
Yeah, soil the point of living "free". "Great life" why even try
to make a difference in the world that you all claim our "fathers" built?
With every hate we have inside our scale is on a constant tilt.
© 2007

Untitled

Current mood: frustrated
Category: Writing and Poetry


So, I was left thinkin' of how you're always there for me, and
I know you think you really mean it when you say that you care,
but all I hear is how you think it's ok to say the things that are on your mind.
So, tell me really do you think that you care? Really? Well then allow me to share.

I just don't understand how you
could say the things you say to me the way you do.
I just don't know the reason why,
but I already can tell that I should just say goodbye.
I really want to work this out,
but you don't seem to know just what I'm talkin' about.
I want to let you know right now,
but I just don't know quite how.

You said you loved me, but just what does that love mean?
'Cause I don't want the love they say you should have in magazines.
That doesn't mean that I don't want it to be perfect.
All it means is that I want it to be worth it,
and maybe mix in a few arguments
because it only makes the lovin' extra passionate.

I just don't understand how you
could say the things you say to me the way you do.
I just don't know the reason why,
but I already can tell that I should just say goodbye.
I really want to work this out,
but you don't seem to know just what I'm talkin' about.
I want to let you know right now,
but I just don't know quite how.

But when I say I want to argue that doesn't mean you tear me down. No.
Don't you lie to my face, then degrade my whole race.
How could let all this hate escape past your lips?
Why would you even think it's ok for a second to say I can't pave my own way?
No, I don't need your help I'm fine all by myself.

Yet again I turn to you, and I don't know what to do.

I just don't understand how you
could say the things you say to me the way you do.
I just don't know the reason why,
but I already can tell that I should just say goodbye.
I really want to work this out,
but you don't seem to know just what I'm talkin' about.
I want to let you know right now,
but I just don't know quite how.

So this is it. It's over now. This whole thing buried in the ground.
I'm not here to change you. It's time for me to rearrange my life,
and you can't be a part. Though you're still dear to my heart.
I just can't take much more of this. I just can't play this part.
© 2007

Untitled (Rap)

Current mood: contemplative
Category: Writing and Poetry


Don't try to discuss religion with me.
I don't wanna hear it.
I don't know if I believe in God
or Jesus' holy spirit.
I don't really know if they exsist,
but then neither do you.
Though I guess that's why they call it faith,
but I can't see that through.
It's too hard for me to say that they
exsist if I can't see them.
I don't need a book to tell how to live.
My mind is free. Besides too many things
are done in name of Gods all holy will.
People killin' blood is spillin'
and yet you believe him still?
I doubt Jesus told you in your dreams
someone deserves to die
for not believing he's the son of God,
our savior, our mesiah.
People constantly run faith
into a deeper pile of shit.
I don't want to be a part of this,
your "Willful testament"
and if your kid decides to shoot someone
don't think it could be me.
Blame the lyrics? Blame the parents!
Look at mommy and daddy!
Where were you when they came to you
said that they had had a problem?
Why weren't you there to solve it?
How did I get so involved?
Why is there a gun within' their reach?
I didn't hand it to them.
Think it's my fault? Take me to court then.
Go ahead now, prove it.

Mommy there's a problem that I have.
This bully took my lunch today.
The way he treats me hurts real bad.
He pushed me down and called me gay.

Now don't you worry mommy's here,
though you do act a little queer...
It's no big deal. I'm sure it's not.
Here have some soup. Careful it's hot.

But mommy I don't have the time for soup
I need your help before I go to school
tomorrow morning and that bully takes my
lunch again. He's gonna make me look
retarded and the other kids all laugh.
Mommy please I need your help.
Maybe I need both you AND dad.

God damnit I don't have the time
now billy. I don't give a shit.
Take your ass back to school
and mother fuckin handle it.
Mommies tired of you nagging her
the second you get home.
You know, daddy's got a gun.
Here. Run along now. Have some fun.

:: Three gun shots ::

So now a tragedy occurs
down at billy's middle school.
Billy shot the bully down.
His mentality was cruel.
See Billy's parents didn't listen to him.
Mommy didn't care.
Daddy was an officer, but
daddy wasn't there.
Daddy worked his hours late
so mommy slept around.
Mommy was neglectful.
Daddy's out of town.
Billy was a good kid.
Billy was abused.
One day Billy had enough,
then a gun was used.
Parents are the answer.
Parents have to care.
Parents need to listen.
Parents should be there.
© 2007

New Beginnings

Current mood: calm
Category: Writing and Poetry


Verse 1:
He wants it to be perfect.
He wants everything in place.
His heart is overflowing and
it's showing on his face.
He wants it to be more than this.
He has so much to share.
I looked deep into his eyes,
but all I saw was despair
as he searched inside so hard
to find the right words to explain.

Bridge:
Your image is a cancer that is living in my brain,
and I cannot erase. It's slowly driving me insane.
I wanted you to know that I can't get you out my head,
and the more I think about it I realize that I would
never be caught dead without you. Can't breathe without you.
Close my eyes and dream about you. Scream your name.
It's not the same, and I'm letting go.

Chorus:
I can't forget the past. Won't regret the last time.
It's the last time that I'll see your face.
I won't remember when. Can't remember then.
Don't you tell me it's not the end.
Is it really your decision? If I wanted you to know
I'd never have let you go.
But I want it, and it's not the same.

Verse 2:
She knows I want to show her
everything I feel inside.
She's not sure if she's ready,
and she's got something to hide.
She never told me how she felt
about this situation, but she
doesn't want to ruin this moment
or my anticipation.
I think she's got it all quite wrong
and I just don't know how I can explain.

Bridge:
I want to show you how, but I don't know right now.
It's burning at my fingertips. Just one more taste of your sweet lips,
and... but I can't get this out. No I can't figure out...
just what am I to say to you? I thought I thought this whole thing through...
Now everthing escapes me... They've raped me with their eyes...
They never look inside... I want to see inside...
I want to make you understand. I love you now, I loved you then.
I'll always love my summerset horizon...

Chorus:
I can't forget the past. Won't regret the last time.
It's the last time that I'll see your face.
I won't remember when. Can't remember then.
Don't you tell me it's not the end.
Is it really your decision? If I wanted you to know
I'd never have let you go.
But I want it, and it's not the same.

Bridge:
There's only one thing left to say you.
(I just can't find the words.)
There's one more thing now that I have to do.
(Right now I need you here.)
There's got to be a way, a sign, a clue.
(But I can't seem to find it.)
There's one thing blocking this amazing view before me.
(I just cannot see past the fear.)
I know there's one more road to travel,
and I can't do this on my own.

Chorus:
I can't forget the past. Won't regret the last time.
It's the last time that I'll see your face.
I won't remember when. Can't remember then.
Don't you tell me it's not the end.
Is it really your decision? If I wanted you to know
I'd never have let you go.
But I want it, and it's not the same.

Verse 3:
I turned around,
(She turned around.)
and saw his face.
(She looked my way.)
I tried to smile.
(She came to me,)
I felt the same,
(and her eyes rained.)
and I left. Never looking back now
at what I was leaving.
Took a breathe. Slowly in and out
as hell was over freezing.
The old and new was all in you.
I saw the view. You saw it too.
Begin a new. Begin a new.
Begin a new. Begin a new...
© 2007

Over

Current mood: contemplative
Category: Writing and Poetry


I knew
from the beginning we were in too deep to drown.
I see you
can't say a thing right so please just don't make a sound.
Look, look, look right through me
See, see, see into my heart and soul,
then let me go.

Bend me, break me, bury me alive.
Love to hate me. Leave me here to die.
Can't you see how it's all crashing down on me?
Push me, shove me, just another lie.
Care for nothing. Don't apologize.
Could it be that's over? It's done you and me.

Do you
understand why I think you're shitting out your mouth?
How could you
not care enough for me to leave all those things out?
Puff, puff, pass your life away.
Drown your sorrows in a bottle,
and wash me down the drain.

Bend me, break me, bury me alive.
Love to hate me. Leave me here to die.
Can't you see how it's all crashing down on me?
Push me, shove me, just another lie.
Care for nothing. Don't apologize.
Could it be that it's over? It's done you and me.

You're just another statistic
Just another drop to fill the cup
(It's over flown)
Don't be so pessamistic.
What'll it take to cheer you up?
Out of reality. You seem so far from me,
and will it ever be enough.

Can't you see your life is killing me?

Bend me, break me, bury me alive.
Love to hate me. Leave me here to die.
Can't you see how it's all crashing down on me?
Push me, shove me, just another lie.
Care for nothing. Don't apologize.
Could it be that it's over? It's done you and me.

Bend me, break me, bury me alive.
Love to hate me. Leave me here to die.
Can't you see how it's all crashing down on me?
Push me, shove me, just another lie.
Care for nothing. Don't apologize.
Could it be that it's over? It's done you and me.
© 2007