I'm not sure if I care anymore.
But what do you do when you're living a life... heading towards other sections of your life... and you don't believe in it anymore? But there's really no other options...
What do you do when you have friends that you don't trust anymore... and you really don't have faith in them or the ties between you? But you can't seem to make new ones...
What do you do when you feel alone, and you don't want to be alone, but you don't have anyone worth being around?
How do you stop isolating yourself? How do you stop giving up? How do you just stop?
And where do you find the time to figure it all out?
And where do you find the time to figure it all out?
I don't really know what to do anymore. I've lost faith in most people including myself. So I don't know if you'll have the time to put this up at all. I don't know if you'll care to. I certainly don't wanna end up like your other friend. The one you talked about in Fucked Up Advice. Yeah I watch your youtube videos... I just never say anything anymore. For a few moments in the day I start to feel like trying... to do something... or reach out to someone... I make a phone call... or something... and then I either regret it when they pick up, or they don't pick up and I lose faith in people even more. I would think that I'm slowly sinking into actual clinical diagnosable depression... but thinking that makes me think I'm not. Who knows... Who cares... I guess.
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