I think I've gotten to the part where I hate you just because it's easier than being let down.
I don't even know you and I like you already. What the fuck?
I have tons of questions... I can't help but be interested in the things going on in your life.
You know I BEGGED you to make a long time dream come true. You just denied me.
You went anyway. I don't know if I can say it was behind my back, but that's how it feels.
I don't care what you say I do not believe that you have cared, can care, or will care about me.
As much as I can be angry at you the problem is that I still give a shit and I know it.
My anger and hate is not throwing me into denial internally.
It's just a mask that I have to remind myself to put on daily.
I've taken it off to call you, but when you don't answer I put it right back on and continue to curse you.
I need to learn to let people go. I have far too much faith and far to much hope. IT keeps sneaking back in...
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