When You Say "It's Complicated"

So what's the point of cheating? Where's the honesty in that? Are you afraid to tell the truth about your feelings? I think that's called denial... Or maybe it's that you don't want to admit that you're not sure of what you want. Maybe you don't want to look like you don't know what you're doing or maybe you like everyone to think you're in control. Well obviously this isn't working on the inside because you're so busy trying to perfect your illusion that you're ignoring the problem and it's only getting that much more complicated.

When is it time to admit your faults? Obviously it's not easy if the fact that you're not perfect is going to let someone down and I mean sky diving without a parachute hard. There's no good way to put it. When you have about as many bad moments as you do good it turns into one of those long drawn out precalc problems just to see if the good out weighs the bad. Maybe it's like if the answer is even then the good triumphent and you stick it out. Unfortunatly these problems end up with a big NO SOLUTION stamp marked all over it. So it's up to you to decide... what now?

The Problem:

It just might be time for a change in your current situation, and unfortunately it's not as easy as most changes (You don't wanna wear purple today? Change your shirt.) You're decision is likely to affect someone else in a not so positive way... not at the moment anyway, and really youre not even sure the change is a good idea... Hence the dilema.

The Solution:

How the hell should I know? Seriously the only thing to do is... talk about it... New Problem:I can't talk about it with the person that needs to hear it... because I'm afraid of hurting them... but I get this feeling that because of how things are going it might be wise to change pace... and maybe we'll meet again...

Conclusion:

I need to learn how to honestly express my concerns... but it's complicated.

PAST COMMENTS
Caitlin Calcagno
Did you write this? It was fabulously written.

Talking it with the person might be best if it's hurting you inside. Sometimes if you talk to someone about something that will hurt them, the pain will only be there for a little bit. It's better than you carrying the pain inside yourself.
March 11, 2008 at 2:53pm

Kiara Vann
Yeah I did write this and Thanks ^.^

I talked to him and it feels a bit better but... Well I'll be explaining in another note if you would like to read that lol
March 16, 2008 at 10:59pm