I haven't been living up to what I once said would be my new policy for men. I'm not very good at not trying, but I'm working on it. I have delete over 200 numbers on my phone, and deleted facebook friends on a facebook I hardly check. I've begun to check it semi regularly just as if it were email, and speaking of email I'm trying to be better at checking that too.
What I am doing now is cutting loose ends. The sad part in this is that pretty much all of my ends were loose and I have almost nothing left. I hardly leave the house... I have no one to talk to... No one calls me... Or texts... No emails...
The last few loose ends that have yet go be snipped will be soon enough. I am still working on it right now. I need my things back first. This whole thing is a long process of cleansing. I must get away from all the negative aspects of my life. I let them in and now I'm shutting them out.
I miss my REAL best friend. Bean. He's in Japan doing Study Abroad. His birthday is May 10th and since mine is a week after on May 17th we always celebrate together. This year it won't be happening...
Things are hard right now, but I'm working through it all. In the end I shall come out as the phoenix once again rising from the flame of my burning ashes.
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