Mistaken?

Fifteen and the count is rising. Should I
sit back and watch the tide come in?
Am I making a mistake, or am I using the right bait?
Don't think that this is getting me
any closer to the ending I have dreamed from the beginning.
Is it over? Am I winning? Is there anyone around me
that can let my pride back in?
Or am I destined to sin? And will the next one be him?
And will he tell all his friends?
Or will the secret stay between the sheets and
will it ever end at the beginning?
Can I will myself to fill in?
Will he fill in once again or will he file in as the one set from the rest?
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